It’s a while I’m going to be back and updating this blog regularly over the coming weeks and months. There will be more “Diary of a First-Time Author”, more writings on disability, wanderings and wonderings into global folklore and more music.
First of all though is the first ever free download of the month. This month’s free download is a song called “Somewhere I Have To Be”. We recorded it in the early stages of recording our forthcoming third album and the music was written and played by our then-keyboardist Niall Spooner-Harvey, who subsequently left the band when he moved to America.
In the end we decided the new album would only include songs written and recorded by the current line-up so we decided not to use it but I still think it’s a great song and I think it’s worth sharing:
This Saturday (3oth August), I’m delighted to say that my band Paul Hawkins & The Awkward Silences will be playing at the Mayor of London’s Liberty Festival as part of the National Paralympic Day. It’s something we’re very excited about and you can find out more about the day here.
When I’m not writing or making music, I work for a national charity that provides welfare assistance to people in difficult situations. I don’t want to name the charity in questions – simply because I write this blog in a personal capacity and, if and when I state opinions people disagree with, I don’t want people to blame the charity for my views. But my job does involve encountering people who are experiencing food poverty and I do work with and issue vouchers for a number of Trussell Trust food banks and – in my personal capacity – I wanted to make some observations on my experiences with them, especially in the light of the story by the Mail on Sunday this week.
In keeping with not wanting to embarrass the charity I work for, I don’t want to get into a political debate on foodbanks. I have my opinions on the reasons for their increasing use but you’re all as capable as I am as looking at the arguments and forming conclusions of your own. However I do want to make the following observations, in the light of the Mail on Sunday’s report.
1) Food banks are an exceptionally useful resource. There’s nothing harder than coming to face to face with someone who has no money for food and having no idea where to send them. I can think of a number of our clients who – were it not for the food banks – would have been in a pretty bad way.
2) The training and level of instruction you get when you register as a food bank voucher holder varies from bank to bank but is generally pretty good. If people are being given vouchers for dubious reasons – and the reason the Mail on Sunday reporter gave struck me as a pretty legitimate reason – then I suspect it’s due to people disregarding the Trussell Trust’s instructions and not a fault with the Trussell Trust itself.
3) The reality with any job dealing with people facing poverty is that it tends to be an immediate crisis and you can’t always get all the evidence that you need to make a rational informed decision. Like most charities we have rules and enforce them pretty well but sometimes you do have to decide on gut instinct whether to trust someone’s story and you really cannot take risks when there’s a possibility of starving children.
4) In contrast to the Mail of Sunday’s report, I actually tend to find it extremely hard to persuade people to accept food bank vouchers, even where there is a clear and definite need. There is a stigma and shame attached to relying on food handouts and the idea that people are abusing the system to get free food, runs in direct contradiction to what I’ve experienced.
5) As someone who is not religious, I’ve been incredibly struck by the compassion and kindness in what the Trussell Trust (essentially a Christian organisation that’s run through churches) is doing. To me it’s perhaps the clearest evidence in the country at the moment to serve as a rebuttal to the idea that organised religion is a wholly negative thing. I think the Trussell Trust is a wonderful example of communities using their faith for a positive purpose and I do find it somewhat surprising that it is currently receiving such a vicious backlash at the present time.
So far I’ve talked a bit about having disabilities but how do they affect me as a musician, in terms of the work I actually create?
To answer that, I’ve put together a podcast of songs I’ve written that I consider to stem from my disabilities interspersed with my good friend Felix Hunt, who plays in one of the two bands I’m in – the Count of Chateau Noir – interviewing me about the songs and what made me write them.
This is quite an in-depth discussion and I’ve taken a decision not to edit too much to allow it to remain fairly in-depth but I realise, because of the level of detail, it may not be for everyone. But, if you are interested in songwriting or disability issues or anything like that, I think we do have an interesting discussion – especially around The Yellow Castle on the Hill.
Anyway, here it is:
Quick Footnote on the Yellow Castle on the Hill
During The Yellow Castle on the Hill – which the only one of the songs on the list that is overtly about the treatment of disability on the whole, rather than any kind of personal confessional – I talk about the history of Stoke Park Hospital in Bristol (i.e. the Yellow Castle in the song). Stoke Park was a hospital for people with learning disabilities and there is a short documentary here which is worth watching, put together by a theatre group working with people with learning disabilities on the history of the hospital. It’s a pretty powerful and damning description of the conditions in institutions for people with Learning Disabilities for much of the 20th Century and pretty much gives the whole context of the song. As a newspaper headline in this documentary says, “these are all somebody’s sons and daughters” and the conditions endured by certain human beings in this country until relatively recently are one of the great unspoken human rights issues of the 20th Century.
This is the second and final part of my interview about the medical kit I use. The Malone ACE (Antegrade Continence Enema) Procedure is a medical thing I do every one or two days to keep my bowels clear as the don’t completely open by themselves. Again, I realise this is a bit of taboo subject for a lot of people (probably including me!) but it’s also one of these things I’ve never really seen anyone talking about and, especially given this is a relatively new procedure where patients pretty much have to figure out how it works for themselves as there are few clear guidelines to follow, I thought it might be useful for some people to hear someone speaking about it:
Once again this was filmed and edited by Tom Mayne.
Ahead of next week’s gig with Summer Camp and the Art Club for Club Attitude, Attitude is Everything have published a short interview with me on their website where I talk about the band, music and disability awareness.
The link is here: